For years, I watched her. Drank her in as she performed in front of an empty theatre, pretending every seat was occupied, the cello settled between her legs as her dainty fingers made love to the strings…one beautiful note after the other.
She thought she was alone, that no one heard her play. But I did. I heard every note, every tune, every vibrato. It drowned out the voices. Silenced the demons. It gave me peace.
I’d hide in the shadows so I could get high on the music that stemmed from her soul. It was entrancing. Beautiful. Utterly hypnotic.
She has no idea that I exist—that I live for the nights she performs for me, and me alone. But she will.
Soon she’ll realize how important she is to me.
My Rating: ★★★★★
This is the Bella J I know. This is the Bella J that wrote The Sins of Saint Series. UGGGG!! I loved every minute of this book. Apparently, it’s what I needed to get me out of the rut I’ve been in this whole week.
When I tell you, I inhaled this book, I’m talking about the kind of focus required for heart transplant surgery. The type of focus that left me wanting to cry every time the kids spoke to me or dared to ask for things like food when all I wanted was to be left alone to read. So, my advice, send the kids to aunt Karen’s house before you start to read it.
Following the death of her mother, Charlotte finds herself all alone weighed down by grief, loneliness and good ole adulting. Barely surviving, her only reprieve is the one gift her mother left her: the love of music, specifically her beloved cello.
Unbeknownst to her, she’s not alone at all. When she crossed paths, well more specifically when Elijah comes barrelling into her life with the force of a hurricane, she finds herself dragged into a life so dark and bombarded with revelations that makes it clear, she’s lived a life of lies.
Elijah a.k.a the musician, is everything I love in my alphaholes. Dark, broody, devil in a $5000 suit with a pretty face and a dark soul. In other words,
Having had a rough childhood, riddled with physical, emotional and psychological abuse, Elijah is truly a product of his upbringing. Cold, callus and calculated. When a knight and shining armour comes to his rescue, he finally finds a way out of the hellhole that has been his home and sets him on a path to being The Musician. Years later he returns the favour. Watching Charlotte from the shadows, keeping her safe and protected from dangers she’s oblivious to. She was just a job: until she wasn’t.
With so much stacked against them, will he be able to keep her safe? With wolf friend’s masquerading as sheep (though we can’t accuse Saint of being a sheep), how will they get out of their predicament?
I loved the chemistry between these two. While it was almost insta-love, which I more often than not, loathe, this time it worked. I loved how Charlotte soothes Elijah’s rough edges, and how he put some fire into her otherwise demure nature. And that cliffhanger: lawd I wasn’t prepared to it. I was so engrossed in the story I didn’t see it coming until it was too late. Now I’m here rocking in a corner suffering with the mother of all book hang-overs.
There were some questions though that left me hanging surrounding where, how, what and why of Gianni’s presence at Elijah’s house that day to begin with. How did Elijah know of Josh’s supposed betrayal? And to who? Who the hell is Harley and WHERE THE HELL IS ELLIE?
I’m so glad I read this book and I can’t wait for book two because honestly, I didn’t like Gian’s story at all. So, I’m glad I overlooked that because homegirl (Southen African girl) Bella J is Bae. Just as testament to how Bella’s books are, I always feel like the books are too short. right?