My first love was my brother’s best friend.
A lead singer in their band.
A picture of rugged perfection.
And a drunk soul mate who couldn’t commit.

My second love was an arrogant baseball player.
A player in every sense of the word.
A smooth-talking, reliable best friend.
And a chance at something beautiful and true.

The problem with having a first and second love?
That would be loving them at the same time.
My story isn’t some sexy triangle.
It’s exquisite agony.
Fate gave me two men to love,
but none of us knew which one I could keep.

Hit the Author Up

Series: N/A

My Rating: ♥♥♥.75

ARC was kindly provided for an honest review


“In a world hell-bent on destroying me, fate handed me you. And ill be damned if I let anyone fucking take you from me.”

I love a love triangle, I mean who doesn’t? Okay…honestly I love them and hate them in equal measure. They often infuriate me because I hate indecisiveness; but you can’t deny the curiousness of how they’re going to navigate their shit. And this was no different. I’m a glutton for punish so obviously when I heart my girl Ella was writing one, it went without saying that it had to be read.

“Being with you, I’ve never felt anything more instinctual or more natural in my life.”

 When Everett Taylor moved to a new town and made friends with the boy across the street, Hendrix, the last this he expected was to be taken into the fold by his whole family. The Sandrine’s introduce him to music and for the first time in a long time, he finds something that gives him a semblance of peace. He has the hots for Hendrix’s sister Stevie and despite how good a thing these two are to him, he can’t help but self-destruct. Plagued by the ghosts of his past, the guilt, neglect, abuse, feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness, he is determined to outrun his past, even if it kills him.

Stevie Sandrine has never really been interested in dating. Sure, she’s gone on a couple of dates because you know, that’s what’s expected in high school. But she’s never been a relationship-seeking type. So when her brother, brings home a new boy from across the street home, she can’t help but be curious about him. He starts to spend more and more time at her house with her, albeit often in silence, even when Hendrix is not home. Soon curiosity blooms to love, and eventually heartbreak; the likes of which damn near kills her.

“Well, hopefully my dad wont curse up a storm when I tell him I got my sixth ticket for the year. I figure he’ll be okay when I tell him the story of how it led to meeting my future wife.”

 Aiden Prince is every girls wet dream; tall, muscular, sexy.  He has his shit together and a promising future as a baseball player. The minute he sets his eyes on Stevie, he’s smitten, but all things considered, he figures the friendship route will suffice…for now. What he thought was the meeting of his future wife, will eventually prove to have been the beginning of a nightmare and immeasurable heartache.

“When I can, mark my words, Clover, I’ll find you.”
“Don’t take too long next time.”

 Okay, I get that the first time Everett left that you know, he was running from something and looking for something to fill the void and ease the burden he was carrying. Cool…but the disappearing act and radio silence over a freaking party while he fucks everything with a pulse was

I also get why Stevie took him back that first time because you know, it could have been construed as one time only thing; although she could have made him grovel a bit before he gave him her cookie but hey. For the most part I tried to give Ever the benefit of the doubt. But I have to say, by his third runaway act, I was

I just don’t get why she had to tie herself up this clusterfuckery. Ever should have been gone ages ago. And don’t get me started to Stevie’s parents. I mean I thought it was great what they did for Ever by giving him a sense of belonging. But that was as far their parenting and adulting went with them. The back and forth that Stevie was doing, I expected atleast one of them to hold her tight and just tell her

I really loved Aiden. And I was team Aiden all day every day.

Unfortunately the book is written from Stevie’s point of view only; which is shame really because after awhile I got tired of her foolishness. It also left a lot of questions unanswered. I think if Aiden and Ever’s POV were incorporated, it may have made Ever more likeable as he would have explained himself to the reader while he was doing the shit he was doing and we would have gotten a deeper understanding of Aiden’s struggles too. Especially because of the historical connection Aiden and Ever share. As a result I don’t feel like I know Ever and Aiden at all.

In conclusion: I’m all for fighting for your love and all that, but Stevie girl;

“No, you had me where you wanted me, fucking tied me down, then drove a Mack truck over my damn chest. You destroyed me.”

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